So, even though I haven't heard anything from dead friend, I'm convinced he/she isn't dead now...and I don't really know why. There's no evidence, really. But I just have a feeling.

WHICH IS GREAT, BECAUSE SOMEONE ELSE DIED.
Jesus Christ, that's like six people in the last eight years for me.
Don't go all 'OH I'M SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS' I really hate that shit. And if I'm not sorry, you're not sorry. And also, it's the reason why I don't pity anyone ELSE who's had someone die...if I can move on from six, they can move on from one. And one of mine killed herself, too. So when they make a big deal out of it, it just pisses me off.

It was this old woman I visit from time to time, because she basically has no one. But she was cool in her way. She had a lot of personality. She was never really healthy, but it still came as a shock, mostly because I was planning on visiting her the day I found her obituary...it would've sucked if I'd actually SHOWN UP at her place only to find it being emptied out.

I'm kind of afraid I'll be in the will.
I reallllyyy don't want to be in the will.

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Okay, so that thing about recording with the band is off. Why? Because the member that invited me quit the group. xD But it's okay. I probably wouldn't have been able to make it, anyway.

But I MIGHT get the chance to go on the radio.
I really hope I get it, but there's a good chance I won't get chosen.
BUT I REALLY THINK I HAVE THE POTENTIAL ;A;